Lee Goldberg has posted his response to my blog of the last few months. He’s upset that my posts have been down. He writes: “I find her posts disturbing and sad”.
I tried to tell him that my blog is about the ups and downs of this writer’s life. I’m not going to write positive posts when there’s nothing positive to say at the moment.
Lee also writes, “It's unpleasant to see her in such a self-defeating, bitter retreat.” Unpleasant? Where does it say that I have to be pleasant? Self-defeating? I don’t see it that way. Should I get some positive mantra? Should I lie on this blog and write only good thoughts? Bitter? Well, perhaps some are bitter. The ones about publishing probably are. On the other hand I don’t see them that way. I see them as telling it like it is.
I state at the top of my blog that the blog is about writing and not writing, good and bad days. It’s true that my bad days have lasted for quite a long time now, but I think that’s important for other writers to read. To see that they’re not alone. Because if Lee thinks I’m the only writer who feels this way he’s living in a dream world.
He goes on to write, “And I'm not so sure it's healthy for her career to be posting about it on her blog...then again, that's probably exactly why she's doing it.”
Healthy for my career? At this stage of my life I don’t think this way. Lee is a completely different kind of writer than I am and probably it wouldn’t be good for his career to post some of the feelings I have, if he had them. Lee is in the middle of his career, and it doesn’t have a lot to do with the publishing world that I deal with. This is not to put Lee down but merely to explain that our careers live in two different worlds.
“then again that’s probably why she’s doing it”? What does that mean? I’m writing these posts to make my career healthy? I don’t get that.
I think Lee entirely misses the humor in these posts. Many people don’t. That’s not to say that the humor mitigates what I feel. I recognize the humor in my thoughts as well as the plain ordinary truth of what I’m feeling.
In his response to my comment he writes, “Read your posts. They are bleak and depressing.” So what? I don’t see them that way, but even if that’s true, so what? Does Lee want me to put on a happy face?
He writes that even when the posts aren’t about myself I express, “dark views about the state of publishing.” Don’t we published writers know that the state of publishing is dreadful? Why shouldn’t I write about that? That might be helpful to a new writer who is getting rejection after rejection.
Lee writes, “Surely there are some "ups" in your writing life (or in your thoughts)
Well, no, Lee. If there were, I’d post about these ups as I have in the past. And if any come along (as I hope they will) I’ll post them immediately.
To be fair to Lee he says some very nice things about me as a writer. And I thank him for that.
Lee, you’ll be the first to know when I start a new novel. And I hope that’s soon.