Saturday, July 15, 2006

After Borders There is Life

It’s over.  I didn’t post yesterday because I was exhausted. Didn’t even turn on my computer.  Not wiped out by the reading, but afterwards.  Went out with friends and didn’t get back here until 2 and went to sleep about 4.

So.  I was very pleased by the attendance and so was Lindsey,( publicity person) and the Borders’ s man, Richard.  Lindsey made everything as comfortable and easy for me as she could.

I continued to be nervous and anxious. I simply couldn’t shake it.  When the time came I was still shaky.  I sat at a table with a mic.  Dry mouth plagued me.  The first laugh calmed me down some. Then I bungled a sentence and I really got laughs, but I was laughing, too. And then it was over.  The Q&A was brief.  That disappointed me a bit as I think I do that best.  Afterwards I signed books. 

I didn’t feel great about the reading.  I felt all right.  Which is better, a lot better than feeling awful.  People said they liked it and some even bought a book.  Was all my worry and craziness for nothing?  In the sense that it didn’t change anything…yes, it was for nothing.  In the sense that my fears were real it wasn’t for nothing.

I’m grateful to those who came and I’m also glad it’s over. Now I have about a month to enjoy my vacation before the next reading.

Back to reading other people’s books.  Hooray!

2 comments:

Linda Barclay said...

Yea! Knew you would make it through in one piece. And it wasn't nearly as bad as you thought. Reminds me of what they say about us as we age: Looking back on old photographs, we realize that we weren't nearly as fat or ugly as we thought!
Best,
Linda Barclay

Kay Sexton said...

Gosh. I just found your blog (and went and looked at 'Let's Face the Music and Dance' which is currently under my bed as it's one of my favourite bedtime reading books and double gosh! A writer whose work I love, who blogs!

I often throw up before readings. When I'm doing them I'm fine, in fact I enjoy them, all but the day before when I just ... throw up. Indelicate but true. Oh boy, I'm going to visit every day now! Finding you has made my summer.