Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Just Can't

I know I’m the first one to say that you have to sit in front of your computer (or whatever you use) for three hours a day no matter what happens.

Well, I’m not.

I don’t feel like writing.  I know, it has nothing to do with feeling like it.  But I don’t want to and I’m not going to.  I started.  Yesterday one paragraph.  Today two lines.

I’m not depressed.  Still, I feel sad.  You’d think I’d be happy today after getting that good review from PW yesterday.  Not.

I’d like to eat 4 or 5 Krispy Kremes.  Or a pint of  Ben & Jerry's Everything but…  It’s been a long time between pints.

So, more time to read.  I wish I knew why I feel so anti-writing.  I guess I’d better take off the rest of the week to think about it.

3 comments:

Fran said...

Hope you enjoy your break, assuming you ultimately take one. And congratulations on your good PW review!

I admit that I've grown to hate writing overall. I only write when I feel like writing; I just happen to feel like writing every day (call me an enternal masochist). Except maybe when I'm not feeling well. Eh, not that it really matters much: I still usually write when I'm sick, but it's sometimes an unpleasant process.

Sandra Scoppettone said...

Fran,
I just read yesterday's post on your blog. I'm sorry you feel so awful about writing. But I don't blame you. If I hadn't gotten published in my 30's, who knows what I would've done? But I think you should persevere because you love doing it. And I'm glad you got out all the venom. Take some time, do something wonderful for yourself then send out that story again.

There's probably no point in telling you that I have a good friend who felt like you but she finally got published when she was fifty. Nah, I won't tell you that.

Don't give up.
Sandra

Fran said...

Thanks so much, Sandra, for your kind words! Right after I posted here yesterday, I checked my email--and that's when I got that rejection. I haven't been feeling well physically (again), which always depresses me, but I woke up feeling better mentally yesterday. And then I got that rejection....

Take care, I hope you have a good break/rest and get right back into writing afterward,

Fran