Nothing got better. I continue to not know what I’m doing. It’s frustrating and demoralizing. I can’t get a real handle on this thing.
What I have to do is read a few books on the subject. I’ve ordered some and hope they come soon. Not fiction. In other words, I have to take a course, a class. My own. I’ve done this before. When I was getting ready to write Donato & Daughter I read a lot of true cop books. It was very helpful. I couldn’t point to any part of the novel now and say “this is what I learned from blank blank” but the studying of the cop books gave me an understanding, familiarity and confidence that I hadn’t had.
Before I wrote my first P.I. I read all the P.I. books I could. This time they were novels.
So, I’m going to try this method again. It’s one thing to not know where you’re going in a form you know how to write. Another to not know where you’re going with a form you don’t know how to write.
I hate having to stop to do this. It gets me all off schedule. But there’s no schedule to be on if you don’t know what the hell you’re doing. So if I’m going to give this book a chance to see the light of day, I have to go to school for about a week or two.
Good thing no one is waiting for this one.