I’ve written about a page and a half since I last posted here. Yes, I have an idea. And I find myself thinking about it especially as I read other people’s books.
Am I working my way toward a disciplined life again? Am I going to find a new way to work? Am I going to work at all? Will I stick to this idea in some way?
I don’t know any of those answers. I guess I’ll wait and see. Or write and see.
I do like the idea. That’s something. Still, I don’t like the thought of a schedule. Perhaps that will pass. Now that I have an idea I like and think I can execute, everything might fall into place. Yeah, right!
5 comments:
Can you possibly write in a less disciplined fashion than before? If you don't feel as driven to show up at your desk at a certain time, produce a certain number of words, might it be more fun? Surely it should be fun.
As you can see in an earlier posting of mine that's part of the problem. I can't. This meager output is evidence of that. In 13 days I wrote a page and a half.
Fun? I've never found writing fun. I've liked some times better than others. But fun? Not my idea of fun.
It's fun for me because I've never had to support myself with it, I came to it at a point where I didn't think I had any talents in life and it was always the thing I wanted to do instead of the thing I had to do. The stories I'd told myself in my head my whole life were finally on paper. Wasn't it fun even before you supported yourself through it? When you were a kid? Megan says the same thing as you and I just don't get it.
I linked to your blog because I was interested in learning more about you. I value you as a an author who has created a significant body of work.
That you are willing to share this part of the creative process is both gutsy and powerful. Gutsy because the questions you are asking are painful. It seems you are struggling with your muse.
Perhaps, you are asking: how does the creative process end?
Powerful, because individuals are not often ready to share personal doubts and struggles with strangers. Your choice is courageous.
Thank you.
Pattinase,
You may have stumbled onto something. If I actually had to support myself with my writing, I might look at it as a chore instead of a passionate choice.
Gives me a new perspective for Sandra's dilemma.
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